.Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ' 1:32 AM Y
Love chastensjust got "scolded" by dear dear. haha, shouldnt i be too ashamed about it? why m i blogging about it? haha. anw got a revelation out of that. so its a good scolding. haha.
everytime when we got scolded by someone who is not so close to us, we'll just take it as if its that person's fault or he is just being nasty and picky. but when we got scolded by someone whom we really love and really significant in our lives, we tend to pause and think if wad is said is really true.
i shant say here what im being scolded for. bleh =p haha. but really thankful for dear dear to point out that blindspot of mine. sometimes we are just used to being us. boyfriend, girlfriend, good close friends are very much like mirrors, reflecting back to us the good and the bad in our lives. but very often, apart from just the scolding, it takes a humble heart to receive and to reflect on that particular issue. pride is often the silent killer. sometimes, its just good that we stop fighting and defending for ourselves and examine ourselves. we should just stop speaking for ourselves and listen to what that inner voice tells us.
Not that i committed any of the 13 sins, but truly i felt convicted to change. after the "scolding" session, (well actually i didnt relli feel v scolded), i thought that thats how God chastens us too. If He doesnt love us, why should he bother to chasten us to become better? just like if im just a nobody to dear, why would he even bother to waste his time and saliva on me? and being chastened by dear does not make my love for him lesser or vice versa, does not make his love for me lesser as well. in fact, i felt reassured by his love for me. so similarly, when God begin to chasten us, that doesnt mean that He love us lesser or we would love Him lesser, in fact, it shows that God bothers with our lives! Chastening is always part of love.
BUt too often in the midst of chastening, we lost sight of the full picture of what God has planned for us in the future, we got disheartened and strayed away, and that becomes a turning point of our lives, a bad and wrong turn.
so if you are being chastened now, REJOICE! for that person loves you very very much!
soften my heart and let not pride comes in and kill my heart silently.
