.Monday, March 02, 2009 ' 11:52 PM Y
had a good chat with my prof today. was asking her abt honours project and research fields. she said sth which i think is so so true. when you wana do research, the key word lies in the "RE". basically, you search and you RE-search and you RE-search somemore. that is like revelation! haha. not alot of people can stand that. anw enjoyed talking to her. just the both of us in that tutorial room laughing away. it feels so different to get to talk to a prof up close. you break away from the normal "student-mentality" and get to know how their profession and thoughts are like. kinda enjoy talking to profs nowadays. haha. will "hunt" for more to talk to. its always useful to talk to people who are different from you. they open you up to another world and reveal things which you nv will know. oh! and i was talking to my technical assistance that day regarding her job and prospects of her job etc.. and i found out that she is actually my jc friend's mother! what a small world! i think i enjoy talking to people who are different from me nowadays. feel that im exposing myself up to that "adult world" which used to seem so far from me last time.
anw prof asked me what do i like to do. well.. honestly what i reli like to do has nth much to do with science! i find science an interesting subject, knowing more about your body and whats gg on inside. when i study science, i feel i dun just study for the sake of passing and getting good grades, i study it with an very open mind of just wanting to know more of God's creation. and i find it v useful, as i study with an open mind, things seems more interesting and less boring.
but to ask me to do science as a career, i do have my reservation. i dun think im those person that can coop myself up in the lab to search and RE-search and RE-search somemore for the perfect answer. prof said you dont get much of a social life in science. its a v different field.
well well.... im confused now. i thought i will be clearer after talking to her. but ended myself up in a unsure-of-my-future kinda mood. was just pondering about what she said on the way home. my CAP now is not so good to secure a good honours, so it all depends on this semester. if i can pull up my CAP at least by 0.2. (the greatest improvement i had so far is only 0.11) if not, maybe i will not consider honours anymore, which means im only a few months away from working life (dreadful.....) feel like im in some cross road now. help!
so this semester is the deciding sem! really got to work very hard and get very serious with every assignment, tutorial, projects and tests! no more falling asleep and being late! i calculated, i need to score all As for all subjects to only improve by 0.22! it seems quite impossible ya, but im seriously willing to give it a try. make it. or break it.
desmond testimonies never fail to motivate me. from a last in class in Boon Lay Sec to nursing in NP with scholarships (lost count) and always getting all the As in all the small tests and big exams, and the offer to do research with KK hospital and the offer to be the leader to lead teams to go overseas for exchange, and somehow i really believe with all my heart that he will be a v successful doctor one day. if God can use such a ordinary guy like him to shame the wise, He can do it tru me too! =) desmond, lay hands on me! haha!
with Him all things are possible!
huijuan jiayou!
i will go school everyday and put on my the best attitude from now on.
(eh? i thought i said im not supposed to blog?)
