.Sunday, August 21, 2005 ' 12:09 AM Y
looooooong time nv blog. but tt doesnt mean im slacking ard in my life. tt means im meditating about life! =)
anw have bn thking q alot about my life. my past n my present n my future. some conclusions...
my pastwas rebellious. did q alot of thgs tt im nt supposed to do. those of u hu noes me shd noe wad im toking abt here. ha. seek wrong sources of love.. companionship n reliance. living a purposeful life is indeed hard. doing almost everything for the sake of doing. my history goes on n on.........
but!
those who or which have hurt you in the past cnt continue to hurt you now unmless you continue to hold on to e pain tru resentment. even for christians.. we hf our past too. some might be nt tt glorious. but we are to glorify God.. nt to glorify our past. our past wad we have to learn fr n move on.
the blood of Jesus Christ can only wash away our sins.. but nt our past n memories.. they r sth tt we hf to noe n learn how to deal with. im learning.. n learning well. =)
my presenttransformed life.
"do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." i've found sth tt who is worth living for n worth dying for. now.. im clear of wad im called to do. getting to noe God is jz like getting acess to a key to open up ur mind for big visions n dreams. im glad i've got hold of tis key. =) this key is actually available to anyone n everyone.. but many failed to realise. the closer you live to God, the smaller everything else appears. whateva im doing on earth now is just like wad im doing when im in my mothers womb. im jz preparing myslf for a new life. a new life in eternity. but tt doesnt mean tt wad i do on earht is insignificant. it earns credit n build up treasures in heaven for me. so heaven is tailor-made just for me! =) im glad tt God has loaned me so many things.. relationship.. posessions.. im an owner of nth but steward of all. im gg to take gd care of all God's loans.
friends.. you'll find urslf waking up everyday n see it as yet another day.. but one more day for you to be on earth to live for ur purpose.
anw if u haven reli found ur drive in life.. here r some pointers..
people are often driven by the wrong thgs in life to do the wrong things which they are not supposed to do..
some common drives are
1. guilt. people often remained to be controlled by their past yet nt e other way round.
2. resentment and anger.
3. fear. -self-imposed prison.
4. materialsim. but rem.. self-worth is nt net worth.
5. need for approval.
if anyone of u falls under these categories.. sth is wrong in ur life. things shdnt be tis way.
benefits of purpose1. add meaning to life.
2. simplifies life. (so tt you dun hf to go tru e process of making new decisions at different stages of life)
3. focuses life. (so tt you will noe wad is to be done which wil be helpful n wad is wasteful.)
4. motivates life.
5. prepare you for eternity.
have you have your purpose? or you thought you've alr found your purpose?
my futureim certain of my path now. wad e future holds for me is held in God's hand. i've visions n dreams. for myself n e society. most imot for the kingdom of God. im pretty sure i wana go into the social work arena to mk myslf available to those in need. i dun nid any nid for approval for my passion. tts e worng kinda drive.
the prove of desire is to pursuit. tts reli sth tt i wld wan to fufil in this life-to impact individual's life. sth tt i hf passion for determines my purpose.
when my talents n passion intersect w the nids of the society.. therein lies my purpose. n im sure tt
the deeds of this life are the destiny of the next. wadeva my future holds.. its e best tt God will give me.
theres alot of things bigger than life.. other than the small little one tt we live in. think
big.
the earth is not our home.
