.Saturday, June 18, 2005 ' 12:17 AM Y
a sense of nostalgia. mixed feelings.
tt kinda feeling came back for a moment. i dun wana tok abt it.
jz wonder how ple can move on with life so easily. jz a glance at e fotos in frnster. evyone. yesh evyone seems to be moving on with their lives very well. including me. sometimes i miss em. all of em. but for a moment i tot to myslf.. tho i might be missing em.. i wun wan to meet em. at least for now. im scared. im scared tt we wun be able to rekindle tt kinda flame we used to have. wldnt it be better to hf tt kinda perfect feeling at heart rather than allowing reality to dash tt very last hope. hope of frnship. we might jz end up being acquintances.
wad are friends?
friends are seasonal companionship.
of cz there r still true frns hu r reali sincere abt e frnship we shared. u guys noe hu u r out there. simple msges. simple phone call. tts all. if u hf fulfiled e criteria.. yep. im toking abt u. =) well.. some ple might thk tt its enuf to hf someone crossed ur mind.. but frnship is nt jz faces appearing in ur mind n merely missing em. i prefer to see actions taken. at least let me noe tt im being missed. being valued.
hf been thkin abt my past. how my life was shattered. lots n lots. how i was bothered by thgs im nt supposed to be bothered by. how i was affected by thgs tt are nt supposed to be taken place. i hf made my way tru. to where i am. at least now i noe. i hf endured. i hf learnt.
i thank god. for giving me a new life.. unconditionally. im a better me now. i love evythg abt me now. tho its nt perfect.. i'll treasure all im given.
have been thkin alot. abt my past. my future.
i see wad my future holds.
i'll work towards it. =)
i thank God for evythg. His grace. His mercy.
